It has always been, is, and always will be HIM, whom my soul loves

Yes, my friends, that is the truth, the absolute truth.

I am in love with Jesus – his counterfeit, make semblance of true love by empty words, will never be for me.  If that means, I have to surrender my heart’s desire, to be reunited with my man, the one God brought into my life 22 years ago, to walk in the garden of the Lord’s delight with him, and spend the rest of my life in the here and now all alone, until Jesus himself returns, so be it.

When I dated for a little while, 4 years ago, a man, who ‘coincidentally’ had the same last name of the one, whom my soul loves, I thought maybe I had gotten the name wrong. Only to find out, that he was not ready to truly commit to love, the way God wants us to love our spouses and companions in life.

I ended it on the command of the Lord 6 short months later, after having realized, that, what I truly wanted, was a relationship with Jesus, loving me, the way, Jesus loved the church, laying down his life for her.

This can only be, if both partners love Jesus more than each other. Because only when Christ’s love flows through us, true love can happen.

Yes, I am willing to wait for his true love to find me in the here and now. If I have to, I will wait for an eternity, for paradise with him. For that is what I truly want. Heaven on Earth – Paradise, walking alongside the one, whom my soul loves, in communion with God, the father, God, the son and God, the Holy Spirit.

I promised I would wait for him forever. I broke my promise  before….., when I settled for a compromise, and when I started dating in 2013. I am forgiven, because I did not know better. Now I do know better.

This time I won’t let go. Because I simply can’t.

Jesus won’t let go either. My soul is tethered to him. He is my anchor and my shield. His staff protects me. And he leads me besides still waters, and gives me his peace.

In his strength I can do all things and I know, with him, my best is yet to come. My dreams are safe with him, and his promises will come to pass, in his timing. I surrender it all to him. In his time he makes all things beautiful.

Thank you Jesus – in you I place my trust – forever and ever.


Source: It has always been, is, and always will be HIM, whom my soul loves

Happy Easter

Hello my friends

It is Easter, and the Lord has been good to us. We have had many ups and downs for a while, but in the end: all is good, for in his time, he makes all things beautiful. 

Because he lives, we can face tomorrow unafraid. I am more and more grateful for what he has done this fateful day, 2000+ years ago… – for he molds me more and more into his likeness, and I love him more and more, the more i understand his deep deep love for us. 

Because he called me, to praise him with the harp, here I am, playing another song for the audience of one – my Jesus. I hope you enjoy it, too. 

Beauty and the Beast 

His death on the cross gave us victory. Let’s walk in the resurrection power of the risen Lord.

Amen 🙌

There is a new song in my heart 🎶

I am grateful for the opportunity, that I had, to truly get my music back on: last week Saturday I played background music 🎶 at a Kiwanis Fundraiser Event. 

At first I was crazy nervous. Then his peace settled into my soul and I was totally calm. Since I was obedient to his call, to accept the challenge, he wasn’t going to let me make a fool of myself. 

It went well – here I am sharing one of the songs with you: Getting my music back on….

I hope you enjoy it. #praisingjesusforhisfaithfulness 


A Symbiosis Song – beautifully written by a fellow blogger ‘Beacons of life’ thank you 😊 

The picture is mine, and it really has no connection to the post. It does however have a deeper meaning for me, in connection with this post. Please just enjoy the beautiful words, written by a fellow blogger and enjoy this group of dancers, that I had the privilege to at least partially watch grow up. Those that are no longer sharing the journey of dance with us, namely my son: they are missed. We enjoyed the duets and group dances we had with these beautiful girls. 

The piano player strikes the keys Each note leads to a song Their symbiotic chords Carry us along The keys are black and white Strikingly opposite Their colors bear no symbiosis But their songs are…

Source: A Symbiosis Song

My Grace is sufficient for you

Oh, my word, it’s true indeed.
Yes, my friends, it truly is. I am blown away by the goodness of the Lord, his grace is sufficient always and forever.

What I have learned in the last little while, is, that we, as the human race, still are bound in the old belief systems, that teach us, that works will get us to where we need to go. This is not so. For in his grace we are able to do all things. And we do not have to doubt him coming through for us. He will.  When we do trust him whole heartedly, he is there. He is there no matter what. We just cannot see it, if we walk in the limitations of our own thinking, which has been learned and passed on through the ages.

We need to, once and for all, drop this doubting mind set and walk in his grace – not focus on his grave, the death he took on for all of us. He had to go through it, we don’t.

Please, my friends, I ask you, to make his grave (death) count, and walk in his living grace, his abundance and his resurrection power.

I am – for I Am is always with me, wherever I am headed. Thank you – living and walking in his light all the days of my life.

Source: My Grace is sufficient for you

You are flawless, perfect in his sight

Yes, you are. He loves you with an everlasting love. Christ died for you, that you would have eternal life and that you would have it to the fullest.

Grab hold of this reality. Christ died – his death paid it all. Go and walk in his peace and in his resurrection power now. Otherwise his sacrifice will be in vain.

How sad, many people, even after having tasted the father’s love, yes, even after having tasted the love of their eternal husband, that have walked in the guidance of the Holy Spirit for some time, start to doubt it all all over again, to find themselves be bound to works, judgement and criticism, fear and worry all over again.

It’s not necessary – God, when he looks at you, he sees the perfection of Christ in you. There is no condemnation in Christ. Only love, grace, peace, righteousness, all bound in one. It’s his gift to you – receive it.

When you give him all the pieces, he resets you to the manufacturer’s settings, that were deposited into your being, when he created you. You are made in his image. Walk in this truth. Amen

Source: You are flawless, perfect in his sight

When the truth and the light appear, you walk straight into Paradise

I never thought, life could look like that. Being transported into the past (February 2013 to be exact). Today (a few days ago), a similar situation occurred. In 2013 I was devastated. Today, I know, I am a step closer to Paradise.Why? Because Jesus came and renewed my mind. In him, I can find the beauty in all things, a blessing in all circumstances.

Grateful in and through the storms of the last years, God, the Holy Spirit and my precious Jesus have taken residency in my heart. Everything I perceive is filtered through their lense of grace, mercy, forgiveness and mostly their profound and steadfast love for me.

I am no longer lost. I am loved by the creator of the Heaven and Earth. I see his hand upon my life everywhere I go. Every set back in the past, has held a stepping stone into a brighter future.

His hand of blessing rests upon my head. Forever grateful. 

His love has made my life so much richer, I never knew, life in the here and now could look like that. But it’s true, I have truly found rest in the arms of the eternal, peace in the here and now, joy despite the circumstances.

In his time, he makes all things beautiful – my time is now. He’s got marvelous plans for me. I am his – and he is mine. Together forever. Such joy. Such peace. Paradise

Source: When the truth and the light appear, your walk straight into Paradise

The Shack – the Movie

I have read the book for the 1st time in 2009. What an amazing read. I felt touched by the love of God and knew I had spent the night (could not put the book down to get some sleep) with God – the Holy Spirit – Jesus. The triune God. 

I did not sleep much that night, yet I was energized and wide awake the next day. I reread the book in 2013 – again, the Spirit of the Lord touched me through the pages of the book. Healed my heart in places, I never even knew. Yesterday I went to see the Movie – amazing. 

No worries fellow believers, the movie does not claim, that either of the personas in this movie are God.I don’t know, if you read the Chuck Black Series ‘Knights of Arrethrae’ or any other Christian book for that matter – I did and I loved them. 

Ultimately it’s always the same thing: fiction bringing the Fibre of WHO God really is, closer to mankind. Those that have not been able to relate to God, have never opened their heart to him, can learn about his true nature: He is a good good father! 

Unbeknownst to me, I found myself in tears this morning: having to let go of some pain, I did not even know still existed in my heart, I believe the Holy Spirit triggered these emotions to be released, because I allowed that deep pain to surface, as the movie touched me on a very deep level. 

Trusting the goodness of the Father yet more. 

See, I have been in love with Jesus for years now, he is my one and only – but because we share a long distance relationship (He is in heaven, I am not yet) – it’s tough. I long for him in the here and now every waking moment of my life. 

There are moments I cope with the loneliness of the here and now better, and there are moments, when I can’t cope at all, feeling overwhelmed and alone. 

I do believe, that one day we will be reunited – but due to these unresolved, unreleased emotions, that I had to surrender and forgive this morning, I had not been able to perceive God in all his goodness and kindness towards me…..YET. 

Deep in my heart, I still harboured the fear, that he will not give me my miracle and my heart’s desire…… It all results from not having forgiven my father for how he treated my mother, when I was little, how I always felt criticized and judged by my father, and my siblings. 

God wanted me to see, that I needed to cast this pain and hurt unto him, for he cares for me. It needed to be surrendered to his profound wisdom – he, who knows all mankind, knows how to deal with all of us, gently, tenderly and just.

I forgive them, told my Abba Father, how sorry I am, that I still saw him as stern, not preparing my place in heaven for me, giving me my reward, when he returns for his girl, his bride, his treasure:……my happily ever after here on earth. Because I could not see him in all his Glory and all his Mercy and Grace. 

The book, now the movie – The Shack – has opened my eyes to even deeper truths, of who my Abba father truly is. I am thankful, and I can only recommend this movie to all of you. Those who never met him, and those who think they know him well……maybe you can still learn something, if you open your mind and your heart, I am sure, the Holy Spirit will touch your heart, and lead you even deeper into the arms of the beloved.

Amen. Praise God. To him be all Glory, Honour and Praise

Source: The Shack – the Movie